Toothpaste on the Mirror

Yesterday was such a good Sunday at church, I really learned a lot. There were a lot of good testimonies and good lessons taught in sunday school and Relief Society. One story that was told in Relief Society was called "Toothpaste on the Mirror." It was a short story telling how small offences grow large when we dwell on them. It was a story of a mother who was always after her husband for getting splatters of toothpaste on the mirror when he brushed his teeth. This just drove her absolutely crazy because he would never clean it off. This went on for years and years until he passed away. The wife missed him dearly, more than she imagined. Her lovely daughter came and visited her often and upon her recent visit, her mom just looked horrible. The daughter questioned her grief. The mother explained that as she did her first cleaning after her husband died, there was toothpaste on the mirror. She cleaned the mirror, but on the second cleaning day, there was more toothpaste on the mirror. Same thing happened the third and fourth cleaning day as well. The mom realized that all these years she blamed her husband for splashing toothpaste on the mirror for may years, but it had been both of them this whole time. The mom had been so upset about such a small thing and it put a damper on their relationship.

There was a lot that I learned from this little story. I learned we need to be quick to forgive and how to tolerate small things that dont' really matter in the end. To me it seems like a waste of time to fret on small offences. There are much greater things to worry about than toothpaste on the mirror. It was a good short story with great meaning.

Life in lucky # 8

Well sorry this took so long to do, but I finally took some pictures of me and my roomates, along with some random picutres of my room. It has really been fun trying to get to know these girls, they are very talented and have grown to be very special to me. It was a very abrupt change for me to come here and be with people that I didn't know, but so far things have been ok and are working out for the better. I have definately learned a whole lot about life, diversity, and compromise. I know I've only been here a few weeks, but it has been a few weeks of trial and learning! I still know things happen for a reason and people are put in our lives for a reason, now I'm just trying to figure out what that is!


Here is a picture of my roomates! From left to right, we have, Wendy, Jessica, Melissa, Me, Amber, and Jessie!


Melissa, Amber, Jessica, Me, Jessie, & Wendy



This is the devine place I rest! My bunk bed! haha!

I'm up top & Jessie is on board below!

This is the other side of the room, there isn't a whole lot of room, but this is the other half of my room!

What Hurts the Most

I've been carrying an empty heart with me. My heart has been broken, completely shatered to pieces. I feel stuck, I feel as if progression has stopped. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to fix it, I know things can and will work out but the how's and when's are what get me. I don't know how to make maliable hearts or forgiving hearts, I dont' know how to teach people how to build back bridges that have been burned, I don't understand why things happen, I know its for a reason but when does it end, when does hatered stop? It absolutely kills me to know that one thing that I care so much about is disapearing before my very eyes. Love is lost, kindness is gone, the will to forgive is hopeless, hearts have been riped out and stepped on, and all for what.. something that happened almost 4 years ago? It hurts me so much to see unwillingness, disobedience, and selfishness. I know things can and will be worked out and there is light at the end of the tunel, my only question is, How much further do we have to travel to get there?

My passion came to an end

Well the past few years I have been working for Desert Riders Motorsports, I have put a lot of time and efforts into this company. Upon leaving my job to move to Provo, I had one last request. I wanted to attend the annual Yamaha Dealer Meeting in Las Vegas. I was able to work things out to be able to attend this meeting. I had an amazing time and an unforgettable experience!


Well this is the fabulous Mirage that we stayed it! It was a pretty cool hotel, I enjoyed it! The pool area was so neat also!










































We had a few minutes before our first meeting started so we were just taking some funny pictures.











































Oh man, this is a story to tell... So Monday night we were getting on the bus to head over to another hotel to watch the Blue Man Show. I sat with Susan and there was an empty seat next to Houston. So a kid came up and sat by him, he was wearing a Yamaha shirt and had a name badge so I knew he was one of the Yamaha Factory Riders. It was Broc Hepler who races for Yamaha on a dirt bike. Houston was in heaven. Well I didn't have a seat next to Houston and Susan because I had to buy my own and it just wasn't close to theirs. I got to my seat and Broc came and sat in my row and was chatting with me a bit. Seats started to fill in a little more and some guys came and sat by me. They were regional managers for Yamaha so it was neat to chat with them for a bit. Well a few minutes later a younger kid and an older man came and sat on the other side of me. It was Thad and Randy. They also ride for Yamaha. They both race in the WNCC class which is just a minor class out door type race. It was such a neat experience sitting with all of them!




Randy, Thad, & Me!

Me and Broc

Me and Houston in our pit shirts

When we finished with a meeting we went touring around some of the hotels and we came upon humpty dumpty so we had to take a picture!

Tuesday after all the meetings and the pool party, me and Houston, as well as a couple from Cochise Motorsports got together with our District Manager and our parts and service rep. We all went out on the town to have some fun! We went to a place called Marguerita Ville. They had a live band and we just hung out and had a good time. I wanted one last picture with the 3 main guys so we took a funny one! After we were done there, we met up with some more district managers and regional managers to have some more fun! It was definately a good time!

After all was said and done, we bummed around all day Wednesday until we had to go to the airport. My flight didn't leave for another hour after Houston and Susan left. As they were boarding and I gave them hugs, Reality hit me that I was done with Yamaha now. I started to tear up a little bit and saw the two of them off. It was a really sad moment to realize that I was done, that my life and my passion that I had come to love was gone. It never really hit me like it did that day, but I still know that there is a reason that I left the things I love to live here in Provo.

Well the day finally came...

Well Saturday August 30th was my last day of work. It never really hit me that this was the final day and that I was not going to be coming back to work at Yamaha anymore. Randy and Susan ( The owners) put together a lil going away present for me. They made a memory book and put pictures inside of the album of things that we had done the past 2 and a half years. It was really cool! I left work and it still hadn't hit me that I was done with Yamaha.

My mom wanted all of us to go out to eat Saturday as a going away diner. We ate at chalos and had a good time. We had cake and had presents for me, David, & Ashley. I was a fun time!

Monday spetember 1st came and I packed up my car and started my journey to Utah. I was really hard to realize that the time had finally arrived and I was really doing what I know I needed to do. When I left my house, car loaded full of stuff, Boom... It hit me that I was not going to come back to my house til Christmas, I was so sad. I made the rounds and took pictures with everyone before I left. I was a tough pill to swallow when I was heading out of town. I just kept thinking to myself... Tory what are you doing? You are leaving a job you love, leaving you freinds and family, all for what? A feeling I had? I know and I still know that it was the right thing to do but I just wonder why sometimes!

I had the oppertunity to stop in Mesa to visit Mike, Dena, & Lincoln for one last time before I left. They took me out to dinner and we watched a movie. I was a really fun time with them!

The journey continued to Panaca to visit my good buddy Steve! I stayed the night there in Panaca and got to hang out with his family for a bit. His friends came over that night too, I haven't seen them in years, so it was really neat to see all of them!